No Great Awakening

No great awakening:

I don’t have an interesting story — there’s was no great awakening event, no disappearance of self and finding true enlightenment. I’ve never really been a seeker either, just someone who meditates and enjoys exploring the different perspectives offered by religion, philosophy, and those with an alternative point of view. If something looked interesting, I tried it, if it proved useful, it became a meaningful part of my life. Pretty simple.

and yet there has been an awakening of sorts, a sense of ownership dropped, of no longer believing myself in charge of my own individual world. I see myself as a participant now, an aspect of life that belongs with equal grace to every other point of this belonging. Everything fits, seamless, even if I don’t understand the reason why.

what I’ve lost is an overwhelming interest in myself as an individual — it’s been gradual, a lessening tug of my own sense personal importance. Of course there is a self, and one I care of deeply, but this self doesn’t stand independent of the world. There is only this belonging. To awaken is too simply see that this is so — it doesn’t (necessarily) call for any great action.

it’s simply seeing.

for me, the blueprint has been the Headless way — Douglas Harding gave easy instructions on how to see, pointing from an object…