Simply Don’t Know

Simply don’t know:

because I simply don’t know — and with this I’m not agnostic, refuting labels of any sort, as none apply to the reality of my experiences and situation. What I’m lacking are words, a description of what I feel is absolutely so in every moment, true, but in every sense a mystery. I don’t need to add beliefs to this, no speculation, and no reason to dismiss a single possibility.

does God exist?

yes,

(for me)

and it’s difficult to say more than this, my words would only add a concept, an abstraction of what is felt by experience, no, by experiencing, as it is always of this moment. This isn’t my belief in God, although I know many will claim it so, but again this is entirely my own affair, a private communion of holiness between myself and the world.

it’s here that I’ll try and make things a bit more clear, even at the risk of contradiction — I say that I simply don’t know and I hold to this position. I have no idea why a dense singularity, so packed with energy and matter, exploded as the universe, so creative in design that even space/time is an instant part of its expansion. A universe that provides room for its own reach, and that conditions cooled from this explosion in such a way that planets and stars eventually aligned in some perfect harmony of existence. It’s…