Stay With This

Stay with this:

to stay with this, and it’s all I ask of myself, that right now I am aware and that it’s noted, presence of a sort, I guess, as really nothing else is found but this, no boundaries that declare awareness has beginning nor end.

just this.

aware.

anything else would be speculation on my part and provides no real meaning to me anyway. I have no idea if it’s the chemicals in my brain reacting in a way that gives cause to the source of this awareness. Nor do my admittedly biased views of panpsychism hold ultimate sway. It really doesn’t matter, to me at least, not being scientist nor philosopher, I have no position to declare or defend in this debate. My insight is always of the present moment, that right now I’m aware, no, not really so, I say this more for the sake of convenience, as truly on examination there’s no one here to claim this awareness as their own.

there’s only being.

aware.

this.

to stay with this, being aware of a self appearing, noting too it’s absence, and without need for it to be anything other than it is right now. I have no reason to believe that this awareness continues after the functions of my brain cease in working order. This could all be a chemical reaction for all I truly know. It amazes me that life…